an evil

god, forgive me for being such an evil. i'm a kind of person that never be the first to throw the war no matter how angry i am. but this time i do it. i threw out some bitchy sentences to them, while they're actually say nothing before. i know those jerks are so annoying yet so chicken for being so coward after me, and they actually deserve that. i just.. it's not my thing to start a fight but this time they're too much! i feel so superior back then, knowing that they couldn't say a thing to me, realizing that they ARE wrong and what i was saying was painfully true but still, i feel sorry for that. forgive me god. for enjoying their guiltiness crash their own self. forgive me.

december.

Remember when we used to talk
sharing our hearts went through the night
your voice whispering in my ear
we take it slow let the love talking

But now you seem to holding back
the way you feel about my heart
i just can feel your emptiness
baby be cool and you will know

Love can be fun
love may be hurt
love can be everything
you want it to
open your eyes
just see it through
and just give it a try
love will find you

-aditya, love will find you-

p.s: i'm coming home. how about you?

?

i'm questioning my self whether to fight, or to move on. while fighting ain't my ability, i'll pretend to move on maybe. just pretend. in case you're turning back someday, who know?

sincerely,
308.199.0

this pretty much sums up what i mean by there's a hole in my lung

i just don't know what happen. and when did it start. but i would cry, everytime i'm thinking about you. or seeing you from distance. i just don't know.