it's you: my first enemy, my bestfriend, my commander, my brother, my role model, my consultant, my fight mate, my... everything, i lost

it's fine if you decide to hate me right after you know that fact
it's fine if you choose to take a break for a moment from me to netralize everything
it's fine if you mad at me because of 'that', that's normal
it's fine if you laugh at whatever i did to my little brother
it's fine if you don't wanna sit with me anymore on that table
it's fine if you're getting closer with her now
it's fine if you don't wanna tell me your new phone number
it's fine if you would never add my facebook account
it's fine if you don't even wanna listen to my explanation
it's fine if you hate the way i gave you those choki choki

and i know how much you love me, as your sister, bestfriend, classmate
that's why you don't wanna ruin everything by letting me love you more
that's why you're avoiding me
that's why i feel so empty lately cause you're never there

promise i won't do the same mistake again.
you can do anything you want,
but please, at least, talk to me. not her.