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Sabtu, 20 November 2010

what happen?

it's just weird how at first i really hate it, got a same job training location with him but now, when everything's going back to normal and we'll be just like, don't even know eachother.... i hate it too. i mean, that stupid badass might have turned to be a pretty nice guy for the last 2 weeks but that would never change my opinion about him, okay? he's just a jerk. and what he's done for the last 2 weeks was just his attempt to mingle with us, his' world outsider. he seemed to be pretty nice, but that's just his act, okay?

so why do i keep on asking why?

Minggu, 14 November 2010

there's something in my eyes

bukan. bukan nangis kok. ini gue lagi kelilipan. stadium akhir. jadinya berair terus deh ga berenti berenti hahahaha :'(

saya coba nurutin sarannya umi. dan itu berhasil selama 1 x 24 jam. i didn't call your number, i didn't open your facebook page, i didn't think about you (at least i've tried, okay?), i didn't write your name on a blank paper (okay, this is getting too much).
you know what, forgetting you is easy. as easy as cutting my own fingers. as easy as burn my own toes. as easy as stab my own back. as easy as ...

well it might be easy but it also hurt enough to me. i've never been this insane before. you've completely changed my point of view, shit. i used to HATE a smoker. i even hate my dad when he's doing a job with his ciggarette on. but look at you, a heavy smoker. damn it. i used to hate a bad boy. you ARE obviously a reaaaaal badboy. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

i just saw your picture with your gf. you look cute together, you know. you should get her back. you should learn that distance means nothing when you really love someone. and i know exactly how you feel to her now. go chase her back, idiot. okay i'm getting a bit out of topic now.

you must be wondering why would i want to keep your watch while it is running out of battery by now. the reason is simple. i wanna keep a part of you heere, with me. so that i know that you are real, you live, you breathe out there. even if i know you would never look back to me. at least i could capture you in my mind, through that stupid watch. yessss, call me a super freak-yet-idiot girl, i am. so please, lemme keep your watch. lemme keep your memory.

when we get back to our domitory later, i really wish everything will be in a normal mode again. as usual, we will be involve in some stupid conversation. you're gonna be sleeping in class and i will be watching you there again. my bestfriend will be my spy again, telling me what you've done in class (or even when the drumcorps session is on) all day long. after the night roll call, i'll be there at the cafe to make sure that i could grab some of those stuffs you've bought, and you'll gonna be mad at me-as usual. EVERRRRRRRRYTHING is normal. i love that idea :)

okay i'm gonna close this stupid post. there's no 'something' in my eyes anymore. i hope you're happy there. enjoy your life, finish your work, i miss you :')

this is how i feel in the middle of the night when everyone's already closed their eyes while i'm still here, wondering if you ever think of me, a stupid lover

i miss you, idiot.

Kamis, 11 November 2010

tuhan yang tau ku cinta kau

barusan aja gue sms an ama umi. talking about you, and how i feel about you, dear stupid fox. she ask me to stop all this painful thing i've done since i fell for you. she said that i was really idiot. "kita semua tuh sodara pi. udalah sahabatan aja ya". well, being your bestfriend was the first priority on my mind actually. anyway, i really thank her for being such an angel to me, but umi you really should know that i've decide. so i'll take the risk whatever it'll take. anyway, gue bakal usaha buat nurutin saranlo mi. tapi gatau bisa sampe kapan haha. thanks umi, honey. you're always be the best =). love you mwah!

live report

yak saya, nyimas sophia melaporkan dari alun alun kota demak. Disini mo ada unjuk rasa a.k.a demo dan saya belom makan. Dan saya lagi ninja rame rame. Dan saya kangen parah. The more i think of you, the more i hate this town :'(

Senin, 08 November 2010

main hati (part 2)

oke pertama tama saya mau say thanks buat agung waydowdow (baca: widodo) yang sudah berbaik hati minjemin henponnya buat saya pake onlen karena henpon saya lagi dipinjem naomi heyaaaaa. Semoga anda diberkati saudara agung. Amin. Dan sesuai janji saya di postingan kemaren, sekarang kita..... LANJUUUUUUUT.

nyambung postingan sebelumnya, jadi sebelah tangan itu bisa mengakibatkan 2 hal:
  1. seneng berasa terbang ke awang awang waktu kita ngobrol ama dia, telpon ama dia, chat ama dia, ketawa bareng dia
  2. frustasi depresi ampe nyaris bunuh diri waktu kita liat dia lebih akrab ama orang lain, telponan sama cewe lain, ketawa ngakak bareng mantannya-yang kita tau kemungkinan mantannya masih suka ama dia.
dan gue nampaknya sedang mengalami poin nomer 2 hahahahaha. tapi gapapa kita mesti kuat ya kaaaaaaan? kemaren dia nge wall gue loh padahal. tapi bukannya seneng, gue malah jadi bad mood seharian. gimana engga coba, isi wall nya jutek abeeeeesssss. padahal gue ga salah apa apa hiks. tapi gapapaaaaaa kita mesti kuat. haha

sebelah tangan itu bikin kita jadi super sensitif sama apapun yang berkaitan tentang dia. Ketika dia ga bales sapaan kita, kita jadi mikir macem macem. Dia benci ama kita lah. Dia lagi suka orang lain lah. Dia lagi banyak masalah lah. Padahal heloooooooo siapa tau dianya emang ga denger. Ato dia lagi konsen nginget password atm nya ampe ga sadar ada yang manggil zzzz. Oke garing. Jadi pada intinya (setelah daritadi muter muter ga jelas kalimat gue) sebelah tangan itu sangat oh sangat rumit kawan. Lebih ribet dari ngerjain soal kalkulus. Lebih ribet dari nerjemahin literatur sastra rusia. Lebih sakit daripada waktu si peter parker digigit laba laba beracun. Lebih aneh dibandingin video keong racunnya lisa jojo. Lebih sweet dari lagu baby nya justin bibir bieber. And so on. Sebelah tangan itu menguras hati, menguras pikiran, menguras waktu, menguras air mata, menguras pulsa (terutama kalo lo jadi 2 menit sekali ngecek facebook di hape just to make sure he's already update his status or not. Just like cindy told me, simple yet complicated :'). Dan demikianlah seri postingan main hati ini saya akhiri. Selamat bermain dengan hati!

Minggu, 07 November 2010

main hati (part 1)

just now, CINDY PERDANA COMPUTERIA wrote something simple but quite ironic: CRUSHING SOMEONE IS ONE OF THE MOST FUN YET COMPLICATED THING TO DO. naaaah iniloh inti dari curhatan gue selama ini. saat kita naksir dan itu sebelah tangan, kita jadi serba salah. liat dia deket sama orang lain, kita bete. tapi heloooo, kita punya hak apa atas dia? perasaan jadi campur aduk. mood jadi naek turun. mirip mirip kaya bocah nunggu giliran disunat lah. ngomong ngomong sunat, ceritanya disunat ampe sini dulu ye. talk to you later, fren.

kau tahu, rasanya di abaikan. cintaku tlah diujung jalan

oke. gue kok jadi super lebay gini yak haha. tapi gue badmood. gue cuma bisa cengo ngliat komen gue yg dari tadi pagi kaga dibales bales. dan wall mantannya langsung dia komen komenin ga sampe itungan menit. haha YA ITU HAK DIA OPI BEGOOOOOO! oh, gini ya rasanya cinta bertepuk sebelah tangan. baru ngerasain dah gue. hm, as i promised you, gue ga bakal ganggu. have fun ya latjanya. gue mo nyetel soundtracknya chun hyang dulu. mo mewek mewekan. salam sayang, your secret admirer :')

short report

halo kawans.
ini adalah postingan pertama gue dari komputer beberapa postingan sebelomnya. sebelomnya gue pake apa? ya pake henpon. makanya postingannya pendek pendek ga jelas gitu ihihi.

jadi temaaans, ditemani alunan track dari albumnya saosin-ga tau yang mana-mari kita mulai perjalanan spiritual ini. jadi sekarang it gue lagi latja. L-A-T-J-A. means LATihan kerJA. jadi satu angkatan guue dipencar gitu ke polres polres dibawah naungan polda jateng dan disinilah gue: demak. demak enak sih, ga terlalu banyak aktivitas, jadi bisa rada nyantai gawenya. tapi yaoloooo tolonglah gue kalo mo jalan jalan ga tau mesti kemana, ujung ujungnya gue muterin sawah sawah belakang rumah tempat gue ginep ajadah. dan kerjaan gue tiap hari itu gantian, ada jadwal jaga tahanan, jaga markas, patroli, pengatura jalan de el el. tugas tugas polisi pada umumnya gitchyu deh. dan loharustaudehyaaaaa gue ternyata satu kelompok ama orang yang gue benci banget buset dah masaolo. jadi kami, para taruni, agak sewot ama seorang taruna yang gayanya lebay abis. kalo ngomel macem kita buat salah apaaaaaaa aja, padahal mah kaga ada apa apa. ITU DULU. sekarang setelah gue lihat baik baik dan rasakan lebih saksama, oke i hate to say this tapi helooooooooooooooo ternyata dia ga seburuk yang gue kira. he was nice to me, nice to everyone here. setidaknya sejauh ini dia belom betingkah kayak dia biasanya. dan gue agak syok juga mendapati sosok asli anak itu ternyata kaya gini. oh taruni 44, kita salah menilai orang ternyata gals..
wokeeeeeeey back to the topic. gue kebagian di demak sama 19 orang lain. dan 3 hari pertama ini... aman aman aja sih. nothing special happened. dan doain aja yah bakalan gini sampe 2 minggu ke depan :)

hem. gue lagi agak... patah hati nih. caelaaaaah haahaha. iya jadi tuh yaaaa cerita tentang the boy yang ada di postingan gue sebelumnya itu ceritanya curhatan gue hahaha. malay deh. kalo kata irwan lalaw mah gue menye menye haha. namanya orang lagi patah hati wajarlaaaah menye menye haha. si batak ini orangnya agak agak badboy gimanaaa gitu haha. dan sekarang gue ga bisa liat dia 2 minggu lebih hoaaaaahm. nanti ajadeh yaaa cerita tentang orang ini

back to latja
2 hari kemaren job gue itu jaga tahanan. yess men, tahanan yang kaya di tipi tipi itu. jadi gue mesti mendekam di ruangan kecil yang dikelilingin ama sel sel para tahanan itu sama temen gue. sumpah mati itu tempatnya betul betul ga bakalan jadi tempat favorit lo buat ngabisin weekend bareng pacar. i mean, tempatnya pengep, ga begitu terang, dan .... bau. baunya itu kayak.... lo pernah belanja ke pasar tradisional ga? pasar yang becek becek ituloooh.. nah baunya mirip sama bau toko daging di pasar. hueeeeekk. dan gue mesti ada disana meeeeeeen ajep ajep da. kadang kadang gantian sama yang jaga di pos depan. di depan juga sama aja. ga bau toko daging sih, tapi berasa kaya orang oon. duduk bejam jam ga ngapa ngapan, cuma ngomong dikit dikit kalo ada yang dateng ke penjagaan. mo maen henpon kaga bisa. mo ol kaga bisa. mo tidur malu diliaitn ama anggota yang disitu. mo nonton acaranya sinetron ga jelas semua. mo makan ga ada yang bisa dimakan.
kalo malem di rumah tempat nginep paling nonton tipi, telponan, ama ma'em. ya gitu gitu aja sih latja. nyaris kayak cuti, tapi dikasih kerjaan bareng bareng. kadang kalo cowonya ada makanan mereka kirim ke rumah kami. tapi yang dikirim yaaa bangsa bangsa nasi uduk. kalo jco ama piza hut ajeee diabisin sendiri wooo. dasar cowo haha. apalagi yak, sepi sih disini so i got nothing to tell ya, gimana dong? hoaaaaaaahm

kangen dia. hoaaaaaaah. gila ya gue jadi gombal gini yaolooo ckck. maaf ya saudarah saudarah kalo postingan gue agak agak najis gimana gitu sekarang. ini efek hormon men, gue jadi gombal gombil ga jelas. maaf ya. mohon menyesuaikan dulu hahahaha. baiklah cukup segini dulu, sampai jumpa di kegombalan gue selanjutnya ya muahahahhaha

Sabtu, 06 November 2010

..and Nasrandy said...

"..KALAU SESUATU YANG TIDAK ADA ITU ADALAH ABADI, DAPATKAH AKU MENJADI YANG TIDAK ADA ITU DI HATIMU?.."

white flag. i gave up. thanks :')

dan tadi bakalan jadi telpon private number gue yg terakhir, gue janji. Maaf ya. You really don't want me to know your number ternyata :). Gue bakal lebih tau diri untuk ga kepedean ngajak lo ngobrol lagi. Gue bakal jadi anak manis yang cuma duduk diem ngeliatin lo dari jauh. Gue bakal tetep having a crush on you but not bothering you, i swear. I hope you get what you want. I hope you're happy even if it's not with me. Maaf ya udah ngerepotin. Good luck latjanya. See you and i love you, badboy little fox :')

loving you means loving your dad too. and i already do =)

kalo meminjam istilahnya sabar (yes, sabar, the HANDSOME one who made me laugh all the time months ago, when he was still with komang. haha), "yaudahlah, darah kamu kayanya udah merah banget ya buat jadi polisi". dan gue bakal bilang itu ke elo if you were here. i mean, so far gue yakin lo ga cuma dompleng nama+jabatan bokaplo buat jadi elo yg sekarang. you worth it man. dan waktu gue ketemu bokaplo few days ago, gue ga heran kenapa gue naksir anaknya. i mean, BOKAPLO GANTENG ABITCH MEN! hahah. like father like son lah ya.

Jumat, 05 November 2010

you're not a wolf. you're a fox, dear.

and you're not gonna be alone by now if only you gave me your number back tthen. entah kenapa, intuisi gue bilang kalo elo bukan tipe orang yang tidur cepet. so, i open your page and your recently updated status has proven it. i really miss you, you idiot fox. but you'll just never know. just like mr. blunt sings: "..and i saw your face in a crowded place. and i don't know what to do. CAUSE I'LL NEVER BE WITH YOU.." sleep tight, rascal :).

if only you were honest, today would be a beautiful day

hai hai hai. today was an awesome day. kueren pol. gimana ga keren coba, gue tadi jaga tahanan meeen surrounded by all those prisoners ihwow keewwl abitch. tapi kangen deh, ama umi, dede, ginandrong, dhayitno si binal, wila, tante tiri kiki, SEMUANYA OKE? kangen semuanya huhu. and i also miss-of course-you rascal little fox si tukang ninja. tukaaan kemaren lo boong ama gue, lo bukannya belom beli perdana, lo cuma ga mo ngasih nomerlo ama gue kaaaan. aaa kangen tau. iye tau gue sebelah tangan gue. sedih deh rasanya having your number but not the courage to call you. or even send a hi-hello-how are you to your phone. i hate it. hate you. hate that i love you so. hadah kumat dah gombal gue

balada cinta sebelah tangan. hoeek.

saya baru sadar kita latja masih lama, dan kita beda polres. saya baru sadar betapa jauh dari demak ke pekalongan. saya baru sadar kita kemaren ga sempet ngobrol lama. saya baru sadar kalo di sini ga ada hotspot dan saya belom beli modem, ga bisa ol. saya baru sadar kalo jam tangan kamu masih saya simpen dan belom dibenerin. saya sadar kamu pasti dongkol ga make jam itu. saya baru sadar saya ga punya nomer kamu. dan saya baru sadar kalo saya kangen sama kamu. gombal emang. tapi ini serius. ehm.