HBD. for the last time. :')

so sorry i was never paying attention to this
i should've know i wasn'tsupposed to be stay around you

when that day came, i just realize how you were always there when i need someone to hold on to. but i was dreaming too high, thinking how you were so ... nice. i should've know that's just who you are. there's nothing special with it. that's just the way you treat all your friend, so i wasn't special at all right?

i've been thinking for days why you were always been turning into someone different each time. i thought that was just your mood, but once again, that was just you. you're so.... unpredictable. like a sun that suddenly shine when the arctic is on winter. like the rain that came while the sun actually still up there, shining on the world. like you, cause that's you.

i should've know that what you did weeks ago, was just your respect to someone who's been always struggling with you for the past 3 months. that's me. and now after that struggling thingy is over, you go back to your world. including her in it, but not me. haha, silly me.

i should've know that i'm not special. it's her so special. i should've know that too actually,cause she IS special to anyone, include you :'). i'm sorry for letting my wish flying too high.

i should've know that we're.... different. sorry, again.

even if you always smile at me
even if you'd rather sit next to me than your friend in class
even if you always stand beside me each time you got a chance to
even if you've been always mad at anyone who's bothering me

even if you always sing that song to me

i just knew that just you
because that's who you are
and i'm sorry for everything
:')

ah, april, 16th. your day... ;)
i should've know that i couldn't say happy birthday to you, even if today is the day
i know you didn't need it and didn't want it though
and i could see you replied every birthday message she gave you, that's the best :)
didn't mean to brag out but i was the one who told her about today actually
so sorry i didn't buy you any gift. you won't like it, i know :)
here is the only place i could say it to you, so...

happy birthday you there, MIF, my best man :')